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ah well another week goes by. thankfully it’s autumn and it’s getting chilly. I love this time of year, even if it’s the time of the canning. Still no job although i’ve had 2 phone interviews in the last week. I dunno maybe i should wear a suit when i’m on the phone. perhaps it would give me the edge i need to get over this hump. As a result of the phone interviews i have been in an up mood lately. which is sort of weird. especially given my ‘down’ nature, thus the monetary non gloom i feel it tainted with the expectation that the sunnier time will soon end. the best is, the longer the good mood lasts the stronger the feeling of impending doom is, therefore instead of enjoying the good feeling, i acutely begin to wish that i was ‘down’ again, because at least when that is happening i know it’s steady and what to expect. am i crazy? well maybe you’re crazy enough to be reading this. so at least i’m not alone.