well fair reader, i came out of my corner swinging on friday, full of youthful bravado about giving up on my god given industry, namely the tech one–better still the web. Well, i said that with a backup plan, and well that plan has been unplanned for me. I’m not gonna get in to specifics, but lets just say that what i took for granted as a safety net has been lowered to about 2 inches above the rocks to teach me a lesson, and well a lesson has been learned. So upon 3 hrs of soul searching, and personal evaluation,(well apart from the last 9 months of rejection, sleepless nites, about 8.2 hours a day trying to figure out what i’m supposed do to support my family) i have determined this: i have very few skills but one of them is my experience in a dot com that went under and as unrealistic as that exp. was, it’s all i fucking have and so i’m gonnna use it– god dammit.
So screw it, i’m gonna get a temp job at 9 bucks an hour answering phones until this recession ends, I’m kinda glad actually, i almost sold out to take what i thougt was the moral and responsible job, and was rejected and now I almost feel more free to live like a loser until i get what I want.
er… can you say rationalization?